Yeah I am watchin'
I have tried to extend my hand out to meeting new people and making new friends. And some of the new people I have met have been awesome. When I attended ![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
spaceface's graduation, I got to meet a lot of her family. I finally got to meet her sisters Steph and Jules (who are pretty awesome in their own unique way). I met Jule's man David who was hilarious. I met her dad and his other half. Her dad is pretty rad, and Rickey is a very sweet person. I met Rickey's daughter Tracy, who was pretty damn kick ass, and I can understand how Jess had a lot of fun with her when they traveled to Cancun. I already knew Colin, and he still remains cool. And of course Jess, which after 7 or 8 years (depending on what calendar you look at)remains one of the most awesome people I know. All of those people have their own unique qualities that made them very awesome to be around. Plus they were intelligent, with differing humor, but good humor nonetheless.
But I have also met people whose intentions are entirely questionable. One of the biggest reasons I stopped looking for men is because of school. But the ulterior motive behind that is because I am fucking tired of being used. I realize everybody uses everybody, and there are people that use that to the fullest extent. Well what people do not realize, that sentence about mutual using, does not mean selfish gain then disappear. It means that friends use each other for company, sharing a laugh, a cry, a fucking cheese sandwich, game tips, how to pull your own teeth and always come equipped with an industrial size can of whoop ass at the ready. That's what I view friendships as. I am not a one sided friendship kind of girl.
I remember when I was a kid, mutual friends were important. I didn't want to go play over at someone's house who didn't want to come over to my house too and play. We had mutual interests, whether it was mud pies, exploring some area that our parents told us not to go in, or riding a bike... it was simple and fun. And now that I am an adult, it remains that simple. It feels more complex because as we age, we hopefully gain knowledge and a better understanding of how we run, and how others run. But it is still a basic foundation...mutual interest. The addition of the internet and meeting people online, it is easy to act like you have a mutual interest. When you meet, then you realize that they were full of shit, and then the friendship pretty much falls by the wayside.
And now I am watching these people that are in question. And one by one as I make a determination on if they are genuine or so fake that I don't even think they know who they are... they either remain in my life, or are completely cut out. Mean? Maybe. Cold hearted? Could be. But this isn't a fucking Perry album where it is everyone else featuring Perry. It is MY FUCKING ALBUM. Being featured is a privilege and an honor.
spaceface's graduation, I got to meet a lot of her family. I finally got to meet her sisters Steph and Jules (who are pretty awesome in their own unique way). I met Jule's man David who was hilarious. I met her dad and his other half. Her dad is pretty rad, and Rickey is a very sweet person. I met Rickey's daughter Tracy, who was pretty damn kick ass, and I can understand how Jess had a lot of fun with her when they traveled to Cancun. I already knew Colin, and he still remains cool. And of course Jess, which after 7 or 8 years (depending on what calendar you look at)remains one of the most awesome people I know. All of those people have their own unique qualities that made them very awesome to be around. Plus they were intelligent, with differing humor, but good humor nonetheless. But I have also met people whose intentions are entirely questionable. One of the biggest reasons I stopped looking for men is because of school. But the ulterior motive behind that is because I am fucking tired of being used. I realize everybody uses everybody, and there are people that use that to the fullest extent. Well what people do not realize, that sentence about mutual using, does not mean selfish gain then disappear. It means that friends use each other for company, sharing a laugh, a cry, a fucking cheese sandwich, game tips, how to pull your own teeth and always come equipped with an industrial size can of whoop ass at the ready. That's what I view friendships as. I am not a one sided friendship kind of girl.
I remember when I was a kid, mutual friends were important. I didn't want to go play over at someone's house who didn't want to come over to my house too and play. We had mutual interests, whether it was mud pies, exploring some area that our parents told us not to go in, or riding a bike... it was simple and fun. And now that I am an adult, it remains that simple. It feels more complex because as we age, we hopefully gain knowledge and a better understanding of how we run, and how others run. But it is still a basic foundation...mutual interest. The addition of the internet and meeting people online, it is easy to act like you have a mutual interest. When you meet, then you realize that they were full of shit, and then the friendship pretty much falls by the wayside.
And now I am watching these people that are in question. And one by one as I make a determination on if they are genuine or so fake that I don't even think they know who they are... they either remain in my life, or are completely cut out. Mean? Maybe. Cold hearted? Could be. But this isn't a fucking Perry album where it is everyone else featuring Perry. It is MY FUCKING ALBUM. Being featured is a privilege and an honor.